Saturday, January 22, 2011

"But if Not"

Day one post-op. There wasn't really anything exciting happening during the night. They tweaked his ventilator a little to see if they could get his lungs to inflate better. The way they "test" this is by loking at a chest xray.

This morning Brigham's xray didn't look "fabulous" so they decided to make the switch from the conventional ventilator back to the oscilating ventilator. I have no idea how to read the settings on the oscilating vent, so I wouldn't know how to say what they are. Anyways, they'll keep repeating xrays once or twice a day to check his progress. Hopefully the lungs can inflate, get some oxygen and nitric oxide inside and get the PPHN down soon.

He's on some nice happy sleepy medicine so he's comfortable and calm. Even though we hate to leave him at night, we're getting some sleep too and it's much needed. Yesterday was an emotionally exhausting day. We appreciate the "phone silence" yesterday. Sorry it sounded so harsh, we just got to the point last night where it was too much to keep answering questions and repeating the same info to several different (well-meaning, caring, loving) people. We're much more stable today, so official "phone silence" time is over :)

We're praying for a miracle because we know it's possible, "but if not"*, we will still have faith and trust in Heavenly Father and we know Brigham will be ok and our family will be ok because we've been sealed for eternity. *(See Daniel 3:15-18, for the story of Shadrach, Meshach, & Abednego)*

8 comments:

Jessica Rodgers said...

I am sitting here trying to soak everything in. I am just in tears. I admire your faith. I am going to be doing a fast for you on this upcoming sunday. I hope the next few days go by smooth and he can have his next surgery.

Isac and Jen Simpson said...

Rebecca you are so strong. What a wonderful example! We are praying for Brigham and your family. Thanks for keeping us updated on Brigham! We love you!

Coleen said...

I sometimes feel silly commenting on your blog, but I want others who read this to know that you and Justin are leading and blessing other lives by your example of faith and trust in the Lord. May he send his tender mercies unto you, Justin and Brigham during this very difficult time. Miracle happen every single day!

Brittney said...

Thank you for the faith you exemplify. It is a good reminder to all of us.

Ella said...

I'll be fasting for you tomorrow and will continue to pray for your little guy. *hugs*

The Picketts said...

Rebecca, I have thought of you and your family often over the last few weeks. We were in California visiting family. You can add Newport Beach Temple to the list of temples that little Brigham's name is in! :o) I haven't had a chance to read your blog until just now and I am just in awe of you and your sweet family. You have such strength! Thank you for allowing me to visit you guys - and please please please...let me know if you need anything or want anything. You're all in my prayers continually!

Haylee said...

I want you to know that your family is in my thoughts and prayers continually. I haven't called because I know that it's a difficult time for your family. I have always admired your spiritual strength. You are a wonderful example to us all. I don't know many people who have as much faith as you guys do. Thanks for sharing your testimony with us. I'm joining the fast for Brigham tomorrow.
I love you guys.

Aubri said...

I'm in tears... I am still praying. I'm also sending you an e-mail today.